Do you want to build a snowman ~
Nostalgic for shaman king ^^
Wouldn’t it be nice if I can collect the thoughts as they pass through my mind? I do have beautiful thoughts sometimes that I want to collect. Sadly most of the time they disappear before I have the chance to pen them down, such is the fleeting nature of our thoughts. It sure would be nice to have a collection of my most beautiful thoughts though, then I can revisit them over and over again. Perhaps in the future people will invent a way to capture and archive our thoughts, kind of like a futuristic Tumblr. That would be so amazing and freaky at the same time. Of course, we should be allowed to curate the thoughts that we want to collect. Otherwise our collection will be filled with our dirty thoughts, malicious thoughts, shameful thoughts and other undesirable thoughts. As if it’s not enough to experience them once.
Sometimes my handwriting is an ugly scrawl. Like today. I was excitedly pouring my heart out into a letter when I realised how irregularly shaped and ugly my handwriting has become. I love its frenetic energy though. It reflects a raw and authentic side of me that has not surfaced for a long time that I almost forgot about its existence. Good to see you again.
I had fun when I was writing. It was so therapeutic. Conjunctions are grossly overrated, I should consider ignoring them altogether the next time I write. Perhaps this style of writing suits me more. I find it more fun to fervently hit my keyboard without thinking than to craft my words carefully, type, backspace, edit. In fact the sound of my urgent fingers on keyboard is music to my ears, sort of like the soundtrack of Atonement, where the passionate tic tac rhythm of the keyboard sets the tone of the movie more perfectly than any other musical instrument.
Being meditative might not be my style after all, even though I admire that style very much in others’ work. Perhaps that is why WKW had so much trouble shooting the contemplative Ashes of Time while he is able to shoot the frenetic Chungking Express in just weeks. Whether or not I choose to adopt this new style permanently, it is definitely a style that I should use more often. Just go with the flow. That is the lesson of today.
Even as I am aware that you are an imperfect human being just like the rest of us, I honestly can’t think of anyone who is more perfect, more pure or more beautiful than you are. Thank you for gracing the world with your luminance. Sleep well little angel, you will always be in our hearts.
Miss you much leslie cheung
Because our gatherings are so rare, and so brief, every minute we spend together is so precious. Time as precious as this should not be wasted holding back what we truly want to say. Time like this should not be spent holding ourselves back from opening our hearts to one another. Vulnerability is the key to making this time well-spent. Be vulnerable and let them see your heart, let them know how much you love them, let them know how beautiful they truly are. No doubt it is fucking scary to be vulnerable, but it seems to be the only way to create intimacy in the shortest time possible. I treasure the times that we’ve spent together as well as the connection we’ve once shared, therefore I am willing to risk.
Think of all the things
We’ve shared and seen
Don’t think about the way
Things might have been
—From the lyrics of “Think of Me”, Phantom of the Opera